Confession of A Struggling Heart

A: Can i ask you a question?

B: What is it?

A: How come you don't say you like me? I have already said it a few times..many times..

B: Do you have to actually hear the words?

A: I want to hear it..just what am i to you.

B: ...

A: ...

B: I like you..No matter how hard i try not to like you, no matter how hard i try to erase you out of my mind..I like you so much that i get upset that i can't do that.

Why was it so hard..? I just wanted to hear those words coming out from your mouth..

Or maybe you just couldn't say it...i didn't know.how would i know..?

I waited and waited..but there was still no answer..just who am i to you..? If you had said these words I would go after you..I would look for your traces, even your footsteps..and i will drag you here..but you..

But you didn't say those words...I felt so tired of trying so hard, just to captivate you, gaining your trust, and possessing your faith..but i was left with no feedback..no response at all..just who am i to you..

Haven't you realized how terrible my life has been?
Have you ever imagined living the life that i have been living?
It's so painful when all you could do is missing someone who's not even yours..

Just what am i to you..
Maybe all i did wasn't enough.

I guess your heart wasn't that easy to be convinced..maybe it's not even mine to begin with..
I used to gave you up to another person thinking that he was better..But now I'm regretting it..that was my mistake..When I thought that i'd be able to forget you, even more pictures of you coming into my head, urging me to get even closer to you. I just couldn't get you out of my head..

I just want you to know,
That I won't stop missing you..
I can't stop missing you..

I'll try even harder than before..
Just to get your heart bounded to mine.

Until then i won't open my heart to anyone else..
Because it's only to you I shall give my love..
It's only to you whom my heart is meant for.
If it's anyone else, life wouldn't be fun anymore.

I mean it..
I'm not joking like I always did.
This time I really really mean it.
I like you..
And I'll be waiting..
Because i like u so much..

BENCI

Alamak...baru aku tau nape result material aku rendah sgt..

Officer kat department of material cakap maximum marks yang kitorang dapat untuk semester ni ialah 80% : ( aku dapat tau ni pun sebab ade member ajak g tanye.

Member aku ni name dia Goncalo..dia xpuas ati sebab dia punyer coursework yang contribute 10% untuk final mark telah di potong 2%..so dia dapat 8% je..aku dapat 7%..

so dari kejadian tu la Goncalon ajak aku g tanye pakcik material tu..lepas tu barula kitorang tau yang head of material department memang selalu buat camni kat first year student..tujuannye untuk membuatkan kitorang rase markah kitorang rendah and cube lagi bagus untuk year 2 punye exam.. huhu kitorang xrase berat ati pun..tapi kesian jugak tgk ade ramai jugak member2 yang failed paper material and terpakse la retake exam time summer nanti..

bagi aku pulak, limitation yang department tu letak kat marking system diorang telahpun mencacatkan result aku..Goncalo pun same..kitorang dapat first class marks untuk subjek2 lain kecuali material..huhu xbestnye tp ni la hakikatnye..hopefully untuk exam final term untuk first year ni limitation tu dibuang la..kalo x maunye aku kene target full mark ah..tapi impossible la camtu..

patutla rase pelik giler..aku dah confident jawab ari tu..tapi kalo ikut ration sebenar, marks aku 64% out of 80% so kalo convert jadi over 100%..marks aku da lepas first class range..huhu xpe la ni sumer masalah limitation je..biarla result cacat atas paper pun asalkan aku tau yg result aku xrendah yg disangka sebelum ni..

aku da semangat balik ni..final term ni nak tunjuk kat pakcik material tu yg limitation xkn berkesan dah kat kitorang pasni..kalo limitation dia 70% (yakni passing mark utk 1st class range) pun aku akan score 70% jugak!! wallahualam

syukran syukran.. : )

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Alhamdulillah & syukur pada Allah S.W.T...akhirnye usaha & penat lelah aku berbalas jugak untuk kali ni..results exam aku da kluar.

aku dapat average 78% untuk 6 modules yang aku ambik untuk semester 1 baru-baru ni. 78% kire 1st class range ah jugak.hmm tepat juge la prediction aku baru2 ni kan?pasal nak dapat average above 70 tu..tapi bukan semua subject aku dapat 1st class mark. satu module je yang jammed iaitu material for aerospace..aku dapat 64% je untuk module tu. module2 lain ok la sebab semua above 70%.above 80% ade 3 subjects. camane ni material buleh slack. padahal aku confiden giler dh time jawab ari tu. maybe sebab excited sangat sebab material tu paper yang paling last so dalam kepale selalu ler pikir prkara yang bukan2.

erk..camane nak buat kapal terbang kalo xtau nak pakai material ape..adui..xpe2 tutor aku cakap it's quite a good start for u..so aku pikir positifla..aku ade peluang lagi and untuk semester 2 ni aku berazam untuk naikkan markah material aku pulak.jangan markah yang lain pulak turun sudahla..haha syukur2..sangat happy walaupun average mark aku x tinggi sangat.

atas permintaan beberapa orang, aku letak la markah aku kat sini..insyaAllah semester ni aku akan cuba naikkan lagi markah2 ni : )

MAS147(Maths for Aerospace) - 88
MEC112(Mechanics) - 86
ACS172(Aerospace Design) - 84
MEC161(Aerospace Engineering) - 73
EEE121(Electrical for Aerospace) - 72
MAT1310(Materials for Aerospace) - 64

confem kene celebrate ari ni..aku nak beli lamb grilled kebab banyak2 pastu sumbat semua sekaligus dalam mulut..hak3 : )